Ive been a mother for 4 whole years now and let me tell you it has NOT been easy. Definitely the hardest thing ive ever gotten myself into but the most rewarding one at the same time. To see a human being you have created just growing up and being this amazing little person is the most incredible feeling in the world. An un describable adventure that will last a life time.
I remember my first time alone with her. When my husband went back to work, when his mom left and it was only me and P. Lord let me tell you I cried like a baby. So overwhelmed with all the responsibility put on my shoulders and being responsible for this little girls life. And still trying to figure out breastfeeding (that shit is not as easy as it looks AND it hurts like hell). I wish someone wouldve told me how hard it would be the first few months especially and how lonley it is to be a new mother. I feel like people sugarcoat it just cause its such an amazing experience and they feel guilty for complaing or crying or this being difficult or you dont know what ur child wants when she cries. When people ask me I am harshly honest because its better to be prepared than not.
Its ok to not think everything is great and fun! I literally hated the first 4 months. It was so hard being awake all night. Feeding every 2-3 hours. Breastfeeding was hard for me and when my husband was home he had to hold me cause I was crying in pain and just wanted to take her off. But eventually I started using a nipple shield and it worked wonders. I also pumped cause my milk supply couldve fed the whole damn neighborhood LITERALLY!!! And being a mother is LONLEY! Especially here for me. My family is in Sweden and his family wasnt living in CA with us so I had no one. It was difficult but the beauty in this whole thing is watching them grow up. Everything they do you taught them. Crawling. Their first word and their first step. Their amazement about the world and how they just love life is remarkable. The first time they laugh and the first time they show you love.
I absolutely love being a mom and it will be my greatest accomplishment throughout my whole life. My little munchkin is 4 years old and I couldve be more proud!
We decided to theow her a Vampirina birthday party and it was a success. So much fun. Kept it small due to this pandemic we have so only family but we couldnt be happier.